a dream is a wish that your heart makes!! cheers

2008-07-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

i duno wat u want.
everything i do seems wrong.

everyone is leaving.
gah.

2008-07-09T09:34:00.000-07:00

just realised i havent blogged for so long! ahahhaa.
blogs collecting cobwebs.

nothing much lately.
but the most recent and upcoming event is our 9 mths anniversary and Z's birthday!
kel helped me think of some 'tasks'. i must say they were pretty damn good!
hahahaha!
acherli he thought of 2! hahaha! they are da bomb!
thanks man!
enjoy ur stay in taipei (:

presents more or less done alr.
now is the writings i guesS?
lol.

sigh, twinnies leaving to australia.
gg miss her shitloads,
YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, HEAR ME?
email me kayys?
love ya twinnie.
HAPPY BELATED BDAE! ((:

life has been pretty mundane.
same old things, same old pace.

2008-04-16T21:02:00.000-07:00

THIS IS A MUST TRY RESTAURANT! (:
corainder leaf - at clark quay. the fusion of western and asian cuisine. where east meets west! (:
the foods realll good! and its totally worth the money! (: we camwhored. and THEY HV CULINARY LESSONS! omg, i sooo wanna learn!
oh speaking of learning, i wanna learn couple yoga! saw it once. looked damn cool! (:
all proceeds from the donations will go to the Save the Endangered Erica species. (:one of their soups. i think its average. THIS IS THE COD FISH WITH SOME SWEDISH MUSHROOMS.
ITS VERY VERY VERY VERY GOOD! (:

another good soup - lobster bisque (:

this is the BEST! the best salad ive ever tasted. with duck, mango, pomelo and veggie. SUPER NICE! ((:
his tandoori chicken which was a lil' too spicy. ohwell.
his dessert. i think the name had the word alaskan in it. the creamy thing u see? DONT UNDERESTIMATE IT! inside, its hot and soft with chocolate! v v v v v v v nice! (:

this is mine. tiramisu. and you see that 'bowl' thing? its made of dark chocolate! (: GOOD STUFF! this restaurant is a MUST TRY! ((:

lovelovelove!

2008-04-16T20:25:00.000-07:00

date at Sun and Moon ( i think thats the name) jap restaurant at CHIMJES.

we both couldnt find the place. hahaha! when we reached, we realised that it was acherli a short walk from the entrance! hahaha, NOOBS.

dont mind the starbucks - he got it for me after my tuition.

became so full i didnt reali hv d appetite to eat. ><>

hes Starbucks BIGGEST patron and im Starbucks BIGGEST taster! haha. the ambience was great~ ((:
and we cam whored. as usual.
my drink and his. mine was some raspberry something juice? ( the one with lime) and his was some weird tasting yoghurt drink. LOL.
TOFU! it was presented in a really cool way! (: in ice and all. but its tofu and i absolutely HATE tofu. so it wasnt anything nice to me. but he claimed it to be absolutely f-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c! LOL.
his.. EEEEW drink. :Xmy main course. teriyaki chicken i think. not bad, since i was pretty stuffed when i ate this. (:mine is always with RAW salmon! (:his - salmon. (: fish murderer! (:the to-die-for cod fishh! ((:

lunch was followed by shopping at bugis and city hall (:

lovelove!

2008-04-16T20:08:00.000-07:00

dinner at Ichiban Boshi at Causeway Point.
the foods pretty good and... THE COMPANYS PERFECT! ((:
haha hes discussing a math problem i cant solve during tuition BUT I COULD SOLVE IT! hahaha, after a long time. LOL. i like this photo! (:
i think this was his.. cuz there was TOFUU! EEEK. mines the 1st photo i think. there were a few other sides. but i hv no idea where the photos went.

my posts are pretty general since these happened so long ago.
the longer posts will probably be dedicated to the more recent events (:

2008-04-15T00:09:00.000-07:00

post on my students. some of them anyway! hahaha.

uh, yes, me. hahahaha! Sharon from GVSS, while doing my relief. the rest were either deleted or not in my phone. lol

this is Gao Shan, damn hardworking! hahaha
this is Xuan Lin, whose so violent and mischievious i can bet shes on par with me! mann.

her brothers hate photos so, next time den.
i drew Yu Qing, see the resemblence? (:
this is Quan Ze, a prodigy, but a lazy one at that. HAHA
this is Xue Ting, shes pasting the 'so late' STICKERS on her door for me! faints. this is Ralph, the one whos always watching me! haha

ok, i reposted this photo!
there are more, but im lazy to post! hahaha. ohwells.

2008-04-14T23:16:00.000-07:00

okayy, im trying to actually do a proper blog post.

laugh at the picture above! hahaha, funny right?

i promised Z i'm gg to place it on my blog, and im not those who'd break promises, yes?

AHHAHAA! SURRRPRRISEEE! (:

to start things off,

this happened like EONS ago,

when we went to the no. 1 French restaurant, Au somthing Jar-something, in the midst of the Botanical Gardens!

the ambience was reall fantastic but the food didnt really settle well w my taste buds.

i'll let pictures do the talking.

on our way to the Botanical Gardens ( i wore d wrong slippers, leg hurt like hell ): )

so bored we decided to camwhore! (:

our gorgeous table! (:

the entre - forgot to take a photo so i decided to combine both. hahaha - look above.
scallops for me. and king alaskan crab for me (: the soup - i cant remember the name but i think its Jeruselem artichokes with truffles( good stuff! )

stir fired mushrooms - werent really that fantastic . ooh.

his main course - pork. mine was duck but i hv no idea where the photo is.. ><

dessert - for him and me!! its nice to look and nice to eat ! (:

us. ((:

thanks dear! the night rocked with you! although i could hv sworn the dark was killing me =x

cheers to the wonderful night! (:

cakes from starbucks to cheer me up from tuition! (:

2008-04-09T00:38:00.000-07:00

i know i shouldnt be the one feeling disappointed since i was the one who cancelled it.
but i thought that this would make me feel better somehow,
and basically, things just got screwed up.
feeling a lil' teary-eyed right now as i type and i wonder why.

it feels as if everything in my life is screwed.
i was so looking forward to it,
thinking of who to give, how they'll react and now,
everythings reduced to naught.
quite disheartening actually.

if only i can make lemons out of lemonade.

ah, so many things hv been happening lately in my life.
basically revolving around - love, money and work.
quite stressed up.
maybe some angel will come lift me up.
hah.
who am i kidding?

to think i looked forward to it since last week.
coming here made me excited and hopeful.
now, disappointment lingers.

ive absolutely no mood to do anything now.

i should hv known better than to hope.
told everyone that they'll get some of the final product.
now, its just disappointments.
so screwed up.

everytime i hope ( EVERY single time),
i get disappointed.
i can deal with anything BUT disappointments.
i guess thats why promises, no matter how insignificant they may be,
matters so much to me.

i always do emo posts.
wonder why,
nothing much exciting happening in my life lately.
i think i may be getting depression.
this is bad.
i cant believe im crying because im disappointed.
what a cry baby.

2008-04-03T20:13:00.000-07:00

hv been real busy lately;
acherli im late again. ohwell. wats new? hahaha.

Z, thanks for everything! ((:
when one heart beats for another, THAT is love. (:

proper blog post when im more free! (:

2008-03-23T04:14:00.000-07:00

ugh, i wonder wats wrong with me.
feeling reall down lately.
its those minor minor things that affect you;
when they start to manifest,
nibbling then chewing, ripping your soul apart like blood sucking creatures seeing blood.

maybe its the hormonal thing, im not sure.
the unfairness of life - why people can get things so easily whilst others hv to work like hell to get it.
craving for something, deprived of the rest.
but the bottom line is: you'll never get it.
a pipe's dream is all it is.

im not insanely jealous of those people who are more privilleged.
just envy i guess.
sometimes. i just wish i were them.

satisfaction? i dont know that anymore.
once you hv something, the excitement and the adrenaline of it dies out.
and you crave for more.

its good to be busy at times, cuz you'll nv hv time to ponder and depress yourself over minor, insignificant matters.
weekends are times which really suck.
and ironically, they are the only time i get to rest.
HA.

issues bugging me,
i cant resolve.

afraid of betrayal,
i decline to tell.
afraid of being less-than-myself,
i put on a facade.
afraid of vulnerability,
i retain my pride.

sheer cowardice.

when things are start to look up,
they get worse.
why hope?
disappointments are on the way.

there are many different types of people.
some are social butterflies, some hide in their room all day long.
some are sporty, some prefer manicures.
some are gung-ho and sporting, some are jus plain boring.

i guess i cant place my ideals on anyone.
who am i to do so anyway?
my ideals'll just hv to be placed on noone, but myself.
the person i wanna be.

talk is cheap.
being an ideal is almost impossible
since there isnt such a thing called Utopia.

a wave of nostalgia hits me,
as i recall how life was in the past.
how everything seemed so simple.
are things just as simple now?
maybe they are.
we are just getting more complicated with age.

oh, how wonderful life used to be.

P.S. i applied for courses in NTU and NUS alr. hopefully i get into the course i want.
of course, its not the ideal course i had in mind. yet again.

2008-03-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

i thought i would nv resort to slitting ever again.
but now, i find myself turning to the blades.
desperate, turning over tables to find something to inflict pain with.
biting and pinching arent enough to numb the intensity of emotions running through me.

the knife.
a rusted old penknife which doesnt really work much longer.
poising the knife over my wrist,
i tried to slit.
the attempt failed with a very angry sibling snatching the knife from me.

tears threatened to overspill.
sobs threatened to explode.
i tried to hold it back.
but ultimately, emotions had the last laugh.
despite knowing crying wont solve the problems i've tried to run away from,
the tearducts carried out its duty well.

now, sitting in front of the laptop,
shoulders heaving as i type,
desperately craving for some comfort from that particular someone - and having none.
besides some cliched words that everything'll work out.

naive me, knowing how things will end up,
i still put in so much faith.
believing that things'll work out in the end.
now, everythings lost.

those whom u care about, seem to ignore u.
whilst the one whom u treat as a platonic friend, calls to reassure you, despite u throwing childish tantrums at him.
hearing ur sobs,
listening to ur grievances.
you know he doesnt understand but still, empathy is all i want.

the shoulder,
the one person who always lends it to u to lean on,
letting u know that no matter what happens,
he'll be there.
accomodating ur ridiculous demands.

my hearts a mess,
my minds a whirl.

i cant decide on what course i wanna take in uni.
(mum isnt helping, shes throwing everything to me, not even wanting to advice me and stuff)
nus or ntu?
hostel or not?
if yes to hostel, will i be able to cope financially since im supposed to pay for my hostel and expenses - which will basically render me a bankrupt.

the horrible strain on the relationships with my parents due to my bad temperedness and keeping late nights (not really late what).
its so bad we arent even talking.
once we start we shout.

the nagging doubts i hv,
worried that i may get deceived,
lied to,
and also, made use of.

so many other things nagging at me,
but im struggling to forget them all.

i miss me.
i miss my peeps ( sorry for neglecting you all )

i totally hate myself.

everytime the phone rings, i tot its u.
but no.
its everyone BUT u.

2008-03-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

ahh, havent blogged for so long alr.
went to NTU's open house last week.
OMG, i wanna stay in hostel! HAHAHA.
thinking of biological sci in ntu.
but somehow, im still not v convinced about the job prospects.
hmm, i'll keep my eyes and mind open at the nus open hse tmr.
hehh.

hopefully i can find a course i truly like.
my cousin was telling me that if most ppl in us take a medical degree once they complete their baisc degree.
but that would mean i'll turn damn old - fugly and wrinkled.
EEW.

ppl seem to think my grades r good, but i dun feel the same way.
i know i shouldnt ask for more, since i prolly lucked out in my as anw,
but still, i still cant help but wish i did better. sighh.
oh, and as a form of congratulating me, my cousin is gg send me a swimsuit DIRECTLY from the us! ((;
hopefully it can fit?

man, im putting on weight. real fast.
as if 2 BOXES OF CHOCOLATES wasnt enuff,
Z got me 2 cups of coffee (one is a frappe! ) and oreo cheesecake, a chicken pie from Starbucks and 2 pies from delifrance! OMG, can someone kill me pls?

and 3days ago(i think),
we went to CHIJMES to hv jap food.
my treat for my average results.
and 2 days ago, we went to this cosy restaurant in river valley - Coriander Leaf
the foods REAL good - esp the smoked duck salad ( $19) and the Baked Alaskan ( $15)- its a dessert but its REALL good. and for the main course, try the cod fish($19) . IT MELTS in ur mouth! hahaha.

man, with the love and the pampering,
its no wonder im getting fat.
thanks Z, but u dun hafta fatten me up you know!
my middle name is SEXY, not PIG!
eeeek!

ohwell, i hope relief teaching call me again. i soo need the cash.
erica's gg to be reduced to eating grass for the rest of next week! SIGH.
and shes DEEPLY DESPERATE for kbox!
okay, if i file for bankruptcy, will i be able to go kbox?
perhaps not.
sigh.
LOL.

i wanna go for a holiday in June, anyone keen?
thailand or smthg?
hahaha.

i wanna eattt.
ohmygod.

2008-03-09T09:06:00.000-07:00

alamak, my knee cap hurts like hell lor.
i was trying to carry a pail of water..
since it was raining and all,
the floor was reali slippery.
so i slipped and fell,
and in a desperate and failed attempt to salvage the pail ( the pail gave way in the end),
my knee whacked against a pole. HARD.
so now, erica is partially handicapped.
donations for a wheelchair can be made directly to her.
all proceeds will fund her SKY HIGH medical bills and the physical, mental and psychological damage done to her.
so, pls donate generously! (:

results wise, they are average lor.
quite disappointed acherli..
but oh well.
blame myself for not trying harder.

thinking of a deg in biological science in ntu.
but options are still open to nus.. ((:

and i jus realised that ALOT of hueihuei's frens know me!
GOODNESS!

2008-02-21T21:43:00.000-08:00

wah not bad leh,
one of the rare times i agree w Cindy's taste.
ahhaha BOYCE AVENUE!
sexy group okayy!

go on, youtube it! haha.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bV0ILsFnAM4&feature=user
i duno how to upload the video here so i shall jus give you the hyperlink..
hahah.
HAVE FUNN! ((:

meeting the peeps later! yay!

2008-02-17T23:07:00.000-08:00

argh still sick,
for 2 weeks and counting.
the doctor gave me apo-metronidazole and augmentin (both antibiotics), ibuprofen ( for leaky nose), korzen ( throat infection), panadol and nurofenbrufen (for fever and pain).
sad case, oh and i got a jab on my ass in an attempt to cool my over 40 deg fever. tsk.
AND..
apparently augmentin, which is alr v strong(my childhood best fren), didnt work.
so now, i got this yellow, pineapple tasting antibiotics - KLACID! cool right?
i love the name.
but the side effects are 50x worse den augmentin!
both causes diahorrea - klacid is worse.
and it gets worser..
nausea, rashes (legs, thighs, hands, arms, face.. HIDEOUS! ), dizziness, headache... there are also more severe side effects which i SURE AS HELL hope i nv experience them: stevens-johnson syndrome, psychoia... yeast growth ( although i think the exact condition is in a v v chim name.. ) etc etc. THE LIST WAS V V V LONG!
faints.

cancelled all my tuitions and relief teachings the whole of last week and today.
tmr, sick or not, IM GG TO ROCK THE HSE DOWN! hahahah.
too broke to talk alr. hehh.

hope i recover by fri so i can meet my peeps! and attend another gathering on sat! WHEE!

HUEIHUEI WAS SOO EXCITED TO SEE MUM (she took leave today)
SO SHE GOT ALL HYPERACTIVE AND STARTED RUNNING, LEAPING AND DASHING towards her (damn, she should jus have opened her arms wide - it'll be like those DRAMATIC appearance ),
BOOM!
she tripped on the wet floor and knocked her toes.
HAHAH HER BIG TOES!
so now both toes are stumped and BLACK!
Mum and i were laughing so hard our sides ached,
whilst hueihuei was sitting at a corner ( like an overgrown child with ______ - filll in the blanks she doesnt wan me to include this in),
sobbing quietly while silently, relishing in the attention we were giving her by laughing.
LOL, i love this clownish sister of mine!
good source of entertainment always. HAHAHA.

as for things w Z,
they are pretty bad.
dun think i can say much here or else, there'll be more unhappiness like the entry i did 2 posts ago.
can ask me if you like.
crazy bugger.

IM SO FREAKING TIRED!
GIMME A BREAK, WILL YA?

2008-02-07T20:39:00.000-08:00

haha i found this quite true for me..
you guys can try it too! ((:

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? (??? eh? nearly died laughing! HAHHAHA)

Your views on education:You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2008-02-02T19:01:00.000-08:00

i know i havent been blogging for a LONG time.
you see, i had a diary and i tried to use it.
but i realised its too tiring to keep a diary.
SO IM BACK TO MY BLOG! haha.

so many things hv been going on.
it makes me doubt of my own abilities.
of being a good daughter and a good girlfriend.
it seems like no matter how much i try,
im always expected to do more.

you know, i hate people to touch or pinch my ass.
its damn filthy and disgusting.
and when i tell boyfriend dearest,
guess what?
'she is even angry that i spanked her butt. no joke. yupz, i cant do anything to my gf. maybe i should just keep my hands to myself'
WHAT IS HIS PROBLEM?! yeah im a prude. NO JOKE OK!

i just expressed my discomfort and he makes it sound like im such a BIG, BLOODY PRUDE!
GAH.
so is it right for me to assume that its his hormones speaking and that we are tgt only because he can, uh, satisfy those god-damned hormones of his?
if so, sorry i cant accept.
find a prostitute or someone else, someone who can accept you and ur UNprudish ways.

and guess whats pathetic?
he acts as if i have to COPY AND PASTE every conversation with anyone!
friends or otherwise.
what the hell?
i have to tell him ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING and when i do, he gets paranoid.
oh great.
what a joy.
and he keeps asking if im enjoying time w my frens: as if my life has to revolve around him him and HIM.
so i cant talk to people now? fun right?

There is something known as PRIVACY.
pronounced as pri-vah-cy.
and i value that and freedom very much.

break up or hold on? i dont know.
this. is. pathetic.
jus. like. me.

2008-01-20T03:40:00.000-08:00

since Friday, 18/1/2008, i positively HATE cats!
ugh. man, so embarassing.
grr, stupid cat.
now i dont even dare to go home alone.
kill that damned cat!
lol.

met my peeps yesterday.
cool stuff! (:
of course, with them sure got embarassing moments.
but this time, it was on me! )):

met them aft tuition.
went to settlers to play and catch up and all.
so we were playing this dino game where the person who didnt get the bone in the end loses.
since im the SELF PROFESSED BITCH, i had to get the bone, RIGHT?
so i did.
snatched it w cap and WHAM!
my drink, which happened to be COKE FLOAT!, spilled..
ON ME!
ugh. damn embarassing.
goodness.
thanks to lu who helped me remove the stains. thank god.
thanks potato! ((:

movied and make the guys watch 27 dresses. hahaha.
it was nice ok! ((:
dinnered at yoshi and home sweet home.

got home at about 1215?
thought i was gg to get a good scolding but no!
cuz everyone was alr slpg! HAHAHA.
lucky me.

2008-01-06T09:03:00.000-08:00

watched AVP2 yesterday w Z after tuition lessons.
my god i swear the movie sucks.
din understand wth it was talking about lor.
fell asleep for a while too.

in the end, got freaked out BIG TIME by the ailens ( the bad guys) and the predators( the supposedly good guys- which leads me to the next point. WHY ARE GOOD GUYS SOO DAMN UGLY?! shouldnt they be angelic with white fluffy wings? ).

so i decided to settle for something more gossip-worthy:
i watched and observed a couple in front of us making out.
you see, the dividers on the seats at GV Plaza can be lifted up..
the couple did that and the girl was like lying on the guys lap.
they arranged themselves into a kissing pose.. and stayed that guy for...
more than 30mins?!!
im still wondering why the guy didn't get hand cramps.
good muscle work out for the girl though. hehh.

went to walk walk around PS.
omgggg saw like 1873461837464 of Z frens lor!
i nearly killed myself.
choked on my ice cream and all. bleah. what a sight.
this will nv happen again i swear.
i shall be sophisticated, demure and lovable.
okay, God help me, im alr choking on laughter.

since its the new year and all,
everyone is like making new year resolutions.
i guess i shall too; although i HIGHLY doubt i'll keep any of them..

1) I WILL STOP HOPING FOR DIVINE INTERVENTION.

you know, like giving up the pipe's dream of The-Supreme-Being(TSB) upstairs transforming my A level results of all Fs to As? ( this isn't gg to happen since at this point of typing, im still hoping for it. )

2) I WILL BE MORE OPEN TO RELIGIOUS BELIEFS.

as in I will not snort in disbelief when people tell me about how they experience and felt the work of TSB. why? simply for the reason that i've nv felt it before and hoping that this would happen to me. hopefully, not in a car accident where i finally see a light calling me to 'cross-over' - assuming Ghost Whisperer is true..

3) I WILL BE MORE HARDWORKING.

i will not ( totally not) sleep in lectures, be rude to lecturers, and shriek and screech in lectures.. blah blah blah. assuming I get into Uni. or else, i shall swear to scrub the toilet clean, and strive to achieve the Utopian ' Clean and Green' Singapore!

4) I WILL NOT NEGLECT ANYONE I HOLD DEAR TO ME.

that includes Z, CASE, Lu, BP, lessie and other scandals i have..
by not neglecting, i mean i promise to keep vigil at your funerals when you pass on.. i promise to make sure that your well taken care of( global warming due to excessive burning of paper money) and that i'll con all your money first. thank you for being so gullible. HAHA. ( i got a feeling i'll get slapped. but yeah, seriously, i will NOT neglect anyone, funeral or otherwise. (: )

5) I WILL EARN LOADS OF MONEY

well, at least enuff for me to spend on myself and everyone.. instead of begging for alms from my devilish sister and the always-willing-to-allow-me-con-and-squander-his-money boyfriend.
oh, and satisfy my cravings for High Class-ed foods which, alone, is enough to allow me to expand sideways and burst through the seams of my clothes. and and AND to appease my material wants, not to be mentioned here - they are EXPONENTIAL! *shudders*

6) I WILL DO VOLUNTEER WORK.

somewhere. reason being simple: i'm a saint.
okay, thats also to atone for my sins commited since I was a zygote in Mum's oviduct.

7) I WILL STRIVE TO MAINTAIN A LONG LONG RELATIONSHIP W Z.

okay, i know i know. dont snort okay? i cant be sarcastic in this entry or else i'll break the VERY fragile heart of Boyfriend Dearest and cause him to die a quick, painful death. OH THAT SOUNDS VERY APPEALING! ooops. no no no, i didn't say that. i would have struck out that phrase/ sentence but i hv no idea how to do it ! damn. but what's done is done, whats cursed is cursed, i guess i shall have to attend his funeral then..

R.I.P ((:

8) I WILL BE MORE SANE..

keeping in tact my sarcarsm, dry humour ( if any), cynism, banshee laughter, amazingly quick temperedness, and of course, my pranks and the 'gift of the gab' to poke fun, insult and whatever to anyone, anywhere and anyhow!
well i guess that doesnt make me very sane, does it?

okay , i shall stop at 8 since its a lucky number.
to all readers,
HAPPY NEW YEAR! and... HUAT AH! ((:

2008-01-03T07:02:00.000-08:00

- things you can only see from a distance *

got a sudden urge to blog - wonder why.
these few days has been pretty boring.
wasted my mornings sleeping and den slacking till its time for me to teach..

stupid schools havent called me.
evil me wishes that theres a MASSIVE flu bug which kills all teachers! so i can go relief!
oops, which also means i'll die! since i'll prolly be a teacher myself!? wth?!
okok, those full time, contract based teachers from NIE affected only. hahaha.

either that or they can answer the governments futile calls to get pregnant and lay eggs.
hahahha, pity us poor students.
let us earn some pocket money..
hahaha!

ohwell, may tuition jobs find their way to me...?
sigh, im soo broke.
dead broke. and head over heels in debt.
sighh.
poor me.

EH STUPID SCHOOL, YOU BETTER CALL ME TMR AH!
you dont call me you really stupid lor! HMMP!
sadded!

2008-01-01T08:44:00.000-08:00

i was reading a book about online dating. it says about this couple knowing each other thru a dating website, 'DUETS'. ( i wonder if it exists in reality). anw they were real hasty and got married in like 8 months of date-ship. after that they ran into some problems and decided to split up. but (in sinfully rare cases), they were very much in love with each other and gave each other another chance. this time, they took things SLOW.
thats about the gist of it lah. hahaha how often do online relationships work out so well? but well, i guess its faith. right?

anw, went to sentosa w Z on monday to celebrate xmas.
ice cream-ed at New Zealand Ice Creamery ( Shiok ah! )
had loads of funnn on the skyride and the luge,
swimming at Tanjong Beach,
bathing for soo long until i think he killed himself ( hey, i was dirty ok! )
catching the songs of the sea performance at night,
dining at sakae sushi,
trained home.
cam whored! ((: here are some ((:

us at the luge - aiya its go-kart. BUT ITS REALLLL FUNNN! lets do it again! this time, slowly. ahahha.

songs of the sea. (:

waiting for our turn at the luge, on the skyride, and at sakae - where we encountered the bluresttt noob waiter!

not forgetting, my darling ass-tanners! ((:
lets meet up soon soon again yeah? LOVES!

these guys steal my breath away! (:

yesterday, it was celebration of new year, and Z returning to army after a month long hiatus.

we were both late and had a slight argument, with me leading it, of course. bleah.

but it blew over pretty quick, i assume? haha.

walked and shopped. i got us shirts and got myself LOADS OF stuff.

did i say im dirt broke now? ugh, dont remind me.

caught ' I am Legend' but i din think the movie was good. last man on earth? hah.

but i guess Will Smith is gorgeous, so its still i must watch! ><>

went to Hilton Hotel for dinner! crazy lor!

its a WHOPPING $140++ per pax?!

well, wat do u expect from a 5 star hotel? hehh.

but i gotta admit the food was DAMN GOOD!

thanks dear! (:

anw, was feeling bad about the dinner so i called abi for help AND THAT EVIL PAIR OF MUTATED TWINS REFUSED TO SAVE ME EVEN THOUGH THEY WERE AT VILA'GE!

hmmp, i'll get you mutants soon!

ahahhaa.

anw 2 major events happened!

1)these 2 innocent looking balloons were HILARIOUS! haha.

the waiter came over to our table.

waiter: hello, your boyfriend here asked me to pass this to you.

(hands over a balloon sculptured flower )

me: thank you. ( raises eyebrows pointedly at Z)

holding the flower in my hands, I WHACKED IT ON HIS HEAD! (:

much to the amusement of the waiters, esp this female one, who started giggling so loudly i could hv sworn the whole restaurant could hear her! ahhaha.

clowns. ((:

deciding it was time for revenge, i went to the balloon boy and told him to make a pig.

me: hello, could you make a pig?

him: huh? ( cocks his head) a pig?

me : yeah you know? (snorts)

him: oh yeah.. ( momentarily stunned) sure..

me: could you also deliver it to him?

so balloon boy came over with the pig and handed it to me.

i laughed so hard i could hv sworn my sides ached. LOL.

it didnt look like a PIG! hahahaa.

2) cheese incident.

this is a photo of the cheeses i took for experimentation.

the guinea pig? HIM of course! ((:

omg his expression was reall funny when the cheese tasted bad! ahahha.

i took a video so ask me if you want.

i doubt Mr Z would take it lightly if i posted it here.

HAHAHA.

anw, after many rounds of cheese tasting, he went nuts and did this:

hahaha! went to buy alcohol later. a bit only lah. 3 bottles?

and guess what? i got drunk. omg. so UNGLAM!

shant say it here.

faints.

but it was a realll memorable closure to 2007.

WELCOME 2008! (((:

2007-12-28T11:00:00.001-08:00

havent felt so useless in a long time.

this feeling sucks.
and i cry.
stupid, useless tears that fall.
helpless and hapless.
and i cry.
without any good.

2007-12-28T10:43:00.000-08:00

everything i do is wrong.
everything i want is shot down.
my dreams. there goes, just poof.

the disappointment is gut wrenching to say the least.
its the pits.

i cant breathe.

2007-12-22T11:24:00.001-08:00

mtg w the asstanners (most of them anw) on wed.
hehh funn!
finally met up w ppl i havent seen for like... EONS!
lol, lets hv more gatherings like these!
supposed to go clubbing but din go in the end.
was a lil sore at first. but it died later on.
chilled at clark quay.
I WANNA MEET SOON SOON KAYYS?!

mtg w my sec sch peeps at ETs place on friday.
soo many ppl i havent seen for so long went!
caught up and got suan-ed, as usual.
sighh.
ahhaha.
totally cant wait for next year.
anw, adeline, when is our next mtg?

lamed with burnt pig, kar chng etc etc.
cool stuff these people are! (((:

things w the boy, on and off.
bleah.
i tink its my horrible temper.
had a talk w him yesterday.
felt so vexed. ahh.
hopefully things work out right this time?

i hate to be forced in doing things i dont wanna do.
its hard being someone your not.
and then you start suspecting ur identity - who you really are inside.

stayover at abis tmr!
YAYNESS!
lol, gift exchange (mines pathetic) and ITS CARDS TIME!
oh, wat time ah?
hehh.

monday, meeting w Z.
(((:

okayy im outtt!

2007-12-12T06:23:00.000-08:00

THANK YOU CUZZIE FOR THE BDAE PRESENTS! they are DAMN nice!

she got me an Adidas eu de toilet set.. ((: and this aroma therapy set! FAINTS.

THANKS MY DEAREST! meet up soon soon soon!!

THANK YOU to kel for the most wonderful Tigger cup u gave me!

i cant believe this happened!

he called me today to ask if i was at home. but i din think much about it cuz i was too tired.

LOL.

den while i was on d phone w Z, Kel called and i went down.

AND ITS THE EXACT CUP I WANTED!

omg, how cool is that?! hahahah!

thank you so much man!

(((:

anw had family dinner at swissotel merchant court yesterday ((:

funn! had fun with yensiew and the rest of the cuzzies.

went to abis place for a stayover - but everyone was late.
lol. my parents were afraid i'd get raped and stayed w me.
HAHAHA.
in the end went to abis council ppls stayover.
hahah funnnn!
happy-ied!

aiyoo lazy blog ah..LOL.

2007-12-09T06:34:00.000-08:00

IM 19!
like finally!
didnt do much today.
ate at this jap restaurant and walked and shopped.
sadly, i forgot to bring my wallet so im gg back tmr to buy! ((:
ahhh so broke.

anw,had dinner at some restaurant in Novena with a Vine in its name.
dont ask me what. i cant remember.
had steak! ((:

kena-ed rejected for donating blood again yesterday.
low Hb level. sianned.
so disappointed.
ohwell, CHRISTMAS. WE SHALL SEE.

talking to yenn now.
hahahaha.
we are gg double dating soon, yeah?
hehhh hehhh.

went to parkway, tampines mall, and city hall.
and lunch at UE square.lol.

so many things i want to buy!
celebrated at home.
sang songs. and had presents!

ruirui gave me a card: a WONDERFUL one! and a HANDMADE KEYCHAIN!
its gg on my wallet!
huei got me a card, and a cardigan!
damnn sweet of her!
so touched.
mum gave me a RED PACKET!
dad gave me a MD card. 4 gig!
super sweet! i need it!

omg, everyone had smthg for me. I LOVE IT!
pictures. next. time.
thanks to the many many who wished me happy birthday!
you know who u are.. ((:
*loves

2007-12-08T12:39:00.000-08:00

Z came to find us at cine. he carried that HUMONGOUS bag of his! and a plastic bag which held the worlds most B-E-A-U-tiful flowers!

at first i tot he was bringing me to some small quaint cosy restaurant to hv dinner.

but.. NO! he brought me to:

MERITUS MANDARIN! the top of the 'M' revolving restaurant. ohmygod.

we went up at the 39th floor just for french dinner!

i nearly fainted ok!

never expected to go somewhere soo posh! OHMYGOD.

till now, im still reeling from shock.

anw, the place was dimly lit and soft music played in the background.

my ears didnt pay much attention to that, except the the accelerating thudding of my heart.

my limbs were so cold i couldve sworn it turned to ice.

anw, we went to our table.

sat down and i debated silently whether to open my mouth or not.

most of the time, i just sat there and balked like a goldfish.

completely lost for words.

ordered our food and talked.

not very successful since my voice refused to return and my mind was blank.

all the while, only 'ohmygod' came to me.

appetizer came. his was soup but mine was salmon salad with avogardo. super nice okayy! ((:

main course came..
mine was cod fish. THE BEST IVE EVER EATEN!

the fish was soo tender, it melted in ur mouth! ((:

Z had his red Garoupa. whatever you call that fish. it was heavenly okayy!

doesnt it look great?! hahaha. oh before this he had scallops which tasted funny. HAHA.

DESSERT CAME! ((:

mine was SHERBET smthg. SUPER NICE!

raspberry was the bestest! ((: fruity and cold, PERFECT!

Z had cake! ((: GORGEOUS CAKE!

had the sudden urge to smash a lil of the cake on his face cuz i was stil feeling shocked.

but decided against it since that is a pretty unglam thing to do..

spared him.

throughout the whole time, there was smthg that captivated me.

the light and the glow from the ornaments. how the hues match up perfectly well..

i think it is super pretty! ((:

oh anw, coffee and mint chocolates came! nicely done! the chocolates look ordinary but they melt in your mouth!

dont ask me why i took so many photos of this. hahaa.

i wanted to leave cuz it seemed to surreal. i had to pinch myself to see if i was dreaming!

but he said he wanted the restaurant to revolve at least once before we could leave.. so being bored, i decided to..

SNAP SNAP SNAP! ((:

i took more. but im lazy to upload. hehh.

the most touching part was to come.

if ur wondering why he wanted to stay till it went one round, it was because musicians were making their rounds!

OHMYGOD.

i did a tripletake when i saw them okay,

1 guitar, 1 base guitar and 1 cello approached my vision as 3 men walked nearer and nearer to me.

each time, i heard the songs dedicated by people.

but soon, it was my turn!

ohmygod.

they sang HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me, and 'the Lady In Red'.

damn touched.

imagine 3 COMPLETE STRANGERS beside ur table crooning love ballads to you.

OMG.

(fine, tears were welling up. BUT IT DIN FALL OUT OKAY! )

it felt soo unreal! like in a fairytale.

i couldnt believe it at all.

i was sooo touched..

"I've never seen you looking so lovely as you did tonight

I've never seen you shine so bright

I've never seen so many men ask you if you wanted to dance

They're looking for a little romance

Given half a chance

And I've never seen that dress you're wearing

Or that highlights in your hair

That catch your eyes

I have been blind

The lady in red is dancing with me

Cheek to cheek

There's nobody here

It's just you and me

It's where I wanna be

But I hardly know this beauty by my side

I'll never forget the way you look tonight

I've never seen you looking so gorgeous as you did tonight

I've never seen you shine so bright you were amazing

I've never seen so many people want to be there by your side

And when you turned to me and smiled it took my breath awayAnd I have never had such a feeling such a feeling

Of complete and utter love, as I do tonight

I never will forget the way you look tonight

The lady in red

My lady in red"

(((:

went to walk around orchard and then, we headed home.

train-ed home.

while waiting for the taxi, he passed me my 'presents'!

OHMYGOD! SO MANY!

look:

i didnt post everything cuz the photos i took were simply too many!

anw, to my dearest..

thank you for everything you've done for me.

words cant express how wonderful u are.

my 19th birthday.

the beginning of ur future.

lovelovelove!

i love you darl!

cant wait to see u!!!! *i love you*

2007-12-08T11:49:00.001-08:00

met up with Jac and Drey on Thursday.

Sweet Jac actually went to get donuts from DONUT FACTORY! for me..

THANKS SWEETHEART! ((:
sat down and talked. funn shitt.
Z came and we double dated.
haha, i went shopping! ((:
got 2 Topshop tops, a Dorothy Perkins Skirt, coffee, shoe bag for Z (he got me slippers! ) ((:
i think still got summore. but i cant remember.
had so much fun!

tried on weird clothes and a dress no one could figure how to wear! HAHA
((:

but now Erica's damn broke. tuition jobs to recommend? ahhh..

friday was an ultra long but super happy day for me. its gg be split into two posts...

I MET UP W CASES ( CASE + SIAMUNG )!

super happy! so long nv see them alr! went To HRC for lunch.
twin was still debating whether to go for class or not, hahaha.tortoise had to go for class, leaving gc, abi and me!and it was raining heavily, so we had to seek refuge in this AnG MOH infested KIDDY place!

had funn at Toys R Us! hhahaa, helped gc look for pokemon. HAHA.
and the baby doll which could talk and pee and poo! HOW COOL IS THAT?!

twin met us later. hung out! camwhored. and went crazy at THAT CD shop!

"which CD shop? THAT CD SHOP! hahaha."

went to play some spot the difference game and surprisingly, twinn was GOOD! hahaha. oops.

Z came after that. wat happened will be in the next post. anw, they saw him! hahaha!

aw, its 430am now.

pictures shall do the talking. (((:

attempting to post another LONG postt! ((: *loves

stayover on tues at abis! (((:
i totally cant wait!

2007-12-05T08:35:00.000-08:00

photos GALORE!!! not much words today! ((:
taken on monday. in the train to tampines!

I GOT HIM THIS TORTOISED UDERWEAR! HE LOVES IT SOOO MUCH, I FELT OBLIGED TO BUY IT FOR HIM. now he wears it 24/7 (even when sleeping and bathing) and refuses to wash it! GUYS. unhygenic.

He came to fetch me from tuition as a surprise. and GUESS WAT?! my sandals gave way! so he got me a beige nike slippers, which is wet now. got cakes from Bakerzine at vivo, and flowers from woodlands. aiyoo. feel so guilty. if only money dropped from the sky.. if only...

ate at Urban East. Not bad ((:
the view from the top of the Esplanade! ((: sweeeettt!!
ice cream from scoopz at PARKWAY! i likeee!

sweet stuff! ((:

ok, im lazy. thats it.

2007-12-04T10:01:00.000-08:00

time for my blog to have a lil update.
hehh.
forgot what i did alr.
lets just say im enlightened now.

friday, 30.11.2007

went to ECP with Z.
wanted to meet earlier but we had some disagreements that left me quite pissed off.
(dont ask me what i cant rmb, but i told lu a lil )
needless to say, i cooled off after a while,
hah.
pms me.

rejected an 8 per hour job offer at lu's company.
lol. i swear im nuts.
trying to find tuition in the meantime.
bleah.

lu told me to alight at the 28th stop but i forgot to count.
how cool.
but Z assured me that he knew where to stop.
apparently not.
we both got lost. ahahha.
and he topo-ed us to ECP after a GOD-KNOWS-HOW-LONG walk.
my legs were aching and blistering and all.
bleah.
anw, the point is: we managed to reach ECP.
haha.

rent 2 bikes and biked biked biked.
stopped at this part of ECP which was litter-free and clean.
sweet!
i din wanna dirty myself but ended up getting drenched from head to toe.
sand everywhere, inside and out.
but well, it was admittedly fun ((:

decided to go CSC to bathe.
walked walked walked.
and there, the admin staff said i was a junior member so i couldnt bring guests in.
got quite frustrated.
so on impulse ( which happens very often),
i dragged Z to bathe.

rented two towels.
one for him, one for me.
but the longer i bathed, the faster my heart raced.
so afraid i'd get dad into trouble for smuggling an illegal fugitive. haha.
so i msged him and told him to bathe as quickly as possible and wait for me outside.
whilst i SLOWLY took my time.
so afraid i'd get caught.
luck was on our side, no one caught us! ((:

went to parkway for dinner and my fav ICE CREAM!
headed home.
it was 11 plus.

realised mum wasnt home yet ( she went to KL).
and everyone else had gone to fetch her except the maid.
went out again.
but came home shortly after.
legs were aching soo badly.
exercised. too. much.

after i showered, mum came home.
she missed her flight!
blur woman.
ahahaha.
SHES HOME! ((:

saturday, 1.12.2007 and sunday, 2.12.2007

spent quality time with family dearest!
had funn!
drove dads car.
damn cool.
travelled at 120 km/hr while dad talked on the phone and the ppl behind were scared out of their wits.
HAHAHA.
super funny.

I JUST LOVE MY DAD AND MUM! (((:
they rock okayy!

monday, 3.12.2007

Z came to meet mum after his swimming lesson with 2 kids.
haha.
i was quite freaked out, but i think nothings gg beat this sat.
god, i hope saturday nv comes.
but it turned out pretty okay.

went to huei's sch to get her pathetic 3 books for next year.
and registered for relief.
headed to coral pri too.
BUBBLE TEA ROCKS!
hehh.

went out w Z after that to TM to catch ENCHANTED!
i swear its like the BEST MOVIE EVER OKAY!
damn nice!
i dont mind watching it again!
in fact, im getting dad to buy the dvd.
hahaha.

walked about TM and I GOT HIM AN ORANGEY UNDERWEAR WITH MANY MANY 'CINDYS' ( tortoises)!
hahaha. just to embarass him.
eh u better wear k!
wahahhaha.

tot Z had to go home for dinner so i insisted that we went home.
on the mrt platform, i realised that wasnt the case.
so we exited the mrt station ( this is like the 2nd time, i do stupid things tgt w him =p )
walked all the way to tampines central for GORGEOUS western food.
but i forgot there was a shortcut. ><
ate and crapped, both in HUGE quantities mind you.
but i had a GREAT TIME!

tues, 4.12.2007

stayed home today.
a lil sick of gg out all the time.
plus i need to spend time w mum. ((:
went to WS ( boring)
and slacked my day away!

its been long since i last did that.
felt reall SHIOK ah!

realised Dad took leave on thurs and fri for me.
but im not able to make it.
)):

ohwell, mornings den!
got a lil rilled up w Z cuz he tried to be totful.
but i din see it that way.
i mean if im not in the mood of meeting you , i'll just tell you straight.
but its all okay now.

mtg jac and ll on thurs.
followed by shopping w Z.

mtg CASE plus SIAMUNG on fri for lunch!
damnnn excited!
miss those ppl soo much!
((:
den dinner w Z.

i just realised im meeting Z almost everyday!
lol.

ahh, im tired.
this post is pretty long!
pictures next time!

if i say im alright, please stop harping on it.
it makes me BLOODY irritated.
and stop asking me over and over again, it gets damn irritating. like some spoilt radio.
incessantly.
grrrr.
I SAID IM FINE!

2007-11-29T06:17:00.000-08:00

went out w abi today.
DLS supposed to come today.
but she had schoolwork to catch up with.
sighh, next week? tuesday?
((:

went to abis place.
saw photos. gave her her present!! hahaha her expression was hillarious!
will upload video when i feel like it. heh,
slacked a bit. helped her buy kfc. and i ate this WONDERFULLY tasting wafer!
haha. bus-ed to my place after that, AND WE TOOK BUS 12 IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION!
faints.
alighted and went to my place.

skate, but it was raining and all.
but we went on w it except the uncle din wanna rent.
so abi borrowed my skates.
and i spoiled it.
need a change of wheels.
BLEAH.

east coast w Z tmr! ((:
totally cant wait!
mums outta singapore. at KL.
back tmr! ((:

2007-11-28T10:39:00.000-08:00

went to schools to apply for relief teaching.
moe said 'registration is successful' the person i emailed said i got approved..
im quite confused now.
lol.
help?
anw i only went to prcs and prps.
will go to other schools soon. maybe friday?

Z came to my place today.
lazed around and all until 4 pm! like, how come time passes so fast?!
went to suntec to get cigars for his granddad.
he got ruirui an UMBRELLA!
a TWEETY BIRD ONE!
ahahha cant believe we took it everywhere.
((:
we even USED IT!
it was funn.

headed to orchard and paid john a visit.
they both started suaning me! EVILTATING!=p
decided orchard was too big (me being lazy)
so went to esplanade instead.
all the wayy trained back to city hall.
((:

had dinner at URBAN EAST.
good food! nice ambience and the waiter was reall attentive.
sambal fish, prawn paste chicken, seafood fried rice, minced pork w salted egg and BROCOLLI!
hahahaha.
ate like a PIG!
*snort*

went for a stroll before deciding to go to the roof terrace of the esplanade to see scenery.
SUPER NICE.
the breeze was gentle, raining sweet kisses on us.
small talks came so easily and i felt at ease.
how comfortable.
this went on for 2 hours plus. before we realised that it was getting late.

totally enjoyed myself today.
simple things, but such great joy.
*loves.

p.s. no photos today. not that we din take photos but im too lazy to post it.
and darl, take care of yourself!!!

2007-11-27T10:16:00.000-08:00

26/11/2007

Z came back at 2am, waited for him but fell asleep shortly after. LOL.

meet in the afternoon.

got him a billabong wallet ((: super nice. next time take photo den i post.

got him a PIG! hahaha.

and also...

THIS! about 600 cranes and a clorets and 16 roses! with a welcome home note!

wahahahah! all done within 2 days!

so proud of myself! lol. jac thinks im nuts. hahh.

went to catch Beowulf. not bad lah. ((:

walk walk walk!

combed bugis, suntec and marina square!

got myself a Mango top and my sis, a necklace.

dinner and then it was home sweet home!

from his trip to aussie, i got A RED billabong wallet, a australian-patent RIP CURL CAP!
thanks darl! i love em all! esp the CAP!!!

my sisters got soft toys!

and he surprised me with BIG BEARY FLOWERS!

9 bears 3 hearts, i love it! ((:

i'll let pictures do the description:

27.11.2007

went to donate blood. late, as usual.

but got rejected this time.

reason being: BLOOD COUNT TOO LOW

like, huh? i eat so much they tell me my blood count too low?!

i almost fainted.

gg eat more iron and go donate again soon.

faints.

waited for Z there and read a book.

koped some songs from him.

sat there until 330 den went to vivo.

while waiting for the train..

walk walk walk walk walk!

leg ached like crazy.

lol but it was fun!

went to marche for dinner.

again, smart me outsmarted him and paid for dinner! ((:

like finally!

ahhahaha.

before marche, camwhored a little...

(((:

went to blow some night breeze and train-ed to city hall to get cigars from his granddad.

but city link din have!

so we went to suntec ( just realised from abi that she and lu were there! wasted! ),

walked until we lost our way.

dots. hahaha.

but finally! we found the cigar shop. but gues what?

IT WAS CLOSED!

!@#$%^&*(~!@#$%^&*()

so we are gg there again tmr.

city hall 3 days in a row.

lol

thurs, date w DLS n UAD!

scandal time!

fri, east coast!

BOY, am i busy! hahahaa.

last but not least,
I LOVE YOU DARL!(((:

((:

2007-11-24T08:49:00.000-08:00

so bored. nothing much to do.
boring day bored bored bored.
and my fingers ache like crazy.
esp the joints and the fingertips.
wonder wat i did. BLEAH.

anw, i FINALLY finished the present for Z.
so proud of myself! within 2 days!
now working on another one incase i dont hv the time next time.
hah.

yw and i were like suaning abi even though she wasnt online!
hahaha.
abi, see our nicks! LOL.

im sleepy and my fingers ache.
but i cant sleep!
gg get some coffee.

'till then..

finally//

2007-11-23T11:30:00.000-08:00

the AS ARE OVER!

i still cant believe it.

suddenly, im so free!

my student scored a freaking 255 for his PSLE!

damn proud of him kay! lol.

and he got A* for math and sci!

super happy. was screaming like some monkey.

lol.

2 more days till Z comes back!

2 more days till we go out!

5 more days till amelia, abi and erica hang out!

oh, anyone keen to play cards this thursday? one more person to BRIDGE! lol.

its like 335am now.

just finished uploading my new skin.

bleah so hard to find.

just when i was about to upload everything A SINGLE BUTTON made all my work disappear!

so i had to redo.

grrr..

i wanna work.

soo many things i wanna buy.

still cant believe i want a digimon! ><

i must be crazy!

LOL.

my fingers hurt like hell.

erased all the pencil markings from the books Kelvinson lent.

packed the books to return to abi, amelia and kelvinson.

now, doing a present.

photos next time.

MY.FINGERS.ARE.SO.ROTTING.

helpp.

2007-11-19T04:34:00.000-08:00

finally, the dreaded as are drawing to an end!
i gotta admit that i din study v hard, BUT AT LEAST BTR DEN NTH OK! faints.
ahh, so many pprs unfinished, so many questions undone.
questions spotted wrongly etc etc.
disastrous. totally disappointing.
BOO.

this thursday, at exactly 0915, erica will be freee!
lol. but im acHERli like super free now. LOL.
booked all the way to thurs. hahaha who else wanna book? LOL.
i miss all my darlingss!
whos on for stayover at abis somewhere in dec? early dec?
who who who? abi on, i on, WHO ELSE!
wifey must be busy right? can join not?
SCANDAL SCANDAL!!

Zs coming back on mon at 2am and we r gg out on MON! lol.
zombie alr, LOL.
finally aft so long, i can see him!
wheee!
happy happy happy!!! (((:

cant wait for the dreaded As to be overrrrrrr!

2007-11-10T07:51:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BDAE ABI!!!! lovelove!

2007-11-06T06:55:00.000-08:00

ahh haven blogged for so long.

had math paper 2 and bio paper 2 today.
super stressed today.
grr.. and the papers werent too good.
sighh, i sure hope i do btr den last yr.
with careless mistakes like crazy, sigh.
this isnt getting anywhere.
but since my next paper is next tues, i can slack a while.
super sleepy.
cant even sleep well without thinking of the sickening as.
makes me wonder why i even bother retaking them.
mentally drained.
cant wait for the torture to end.

kenny was nice enuff to drive me back from mj during the 4 hr long break which would otherwise be spent in sch.
things i did at home?
dont mention.
hah.

oh went to the exam venue today.
so blur until i lost my way.
made me nearly die.
faints.

anyway, thats besides the point.
I SAW MS LEO ( WHO IS PREGNANT), MISS CHAN AND MR CHOW!
ohmygod!
triple blow.
super paiseh lor.
hopefully i can prove them wrong?
hmmm...
study study.

i seriously have no life.
miss claritys tmr!

2007-10-27T09:18:00.000-07:00

ayeeayee, im back.
for those whos complaining that im not blogging often,
HERE IT IS!
just dont expect it to be long cuz i have no idea what to blog about!

well, for starters, i think i should acknowledge my greatest fears.
THE BIG DREADED AS IS APPROACHING IN LIKE 4DAYs?!
and my revision isnt complete, well, not even close.
help?
i need to buck up. like totally.
god.help.me.

Z has been calling almost everyday.
although i do love talking to him, im really worried about his bill.
i think he's gg have a HARD TIME paying them off.
PLUS theres the car instalments, plus COE, plus oil.. the list goes down.
faints.
the smses we send are alr enuff to kill and i wish i could call him, for once.
sighh, but my mum refuses to allow me to do so.
)):

cant wait for the 25th to arrive.
hopefully i get the car.
or else we'll cab yeah? no matter what, i'll pick u up! ((:

AND I MISS MY DARLING CASE AND FELLOW ASSTANNERS VERY BADLY!
outing after my as?
miss u guys loads!!
ahhh, the scandaling...
dont scandal w/o me ah!=p

LOVES

2007-10-18T12:21:00.000-07:00

ahh, its 320 am now and what am i doing?
IM BLOGGING!
yay.

the past few days have been dreadful.
no studying, no hanging out.
just tv the whole day,
its reallyyy depressing.

the As are approaching in like 10 days? as ive been told by some random people.
AND HERE I AM, SLACKING.
ohmygod.
everyones like mugging like crazy and me? cant find the motivation.
just sleep use com tv.
grr, starting to despise myself.
Z has been constantly reminding me to study in his msgs to me.
he seems more worried den me!
><

cant wait for the BIG DREADED As to be over!
once its over, Z'll be coming back a few days later.
AND IT'LL BE SLACK SLACK SLACK!
how nice...!!
sighh..

imissyou.
<333

2007-10-11T09:39:00.000-07:00

went to fish and co for dinner today.
and guess who i saw?!
HENDRA!
hahaha. immediately msgd twin.
lol.

and i nominated him as best waiter! hahaha must support tpjcians!!
lol.

nearly died today.
cant concentrate studying.
cuz my mind was elsewhere.
AND it turned out that he wasnt angry ( when he replied ).
me and my imagination.
but i could have swore that he was angry lor.
lucky not alr.

AND U PAPAYA POO!
U DARE TO MESS MY HAIR AGAIN, I'LL BOX U!
hahahaha...
*loves*

wah, 2 months w/o seeing papaya. die.

2007-10-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

haha im back blogging.
exams are really round the corner and ive been gg out.
sighh.
and i din really feel the stress until Z was like ' eh its coming alr...! '
faints.

met up today to have lunch at miss claritys.
and he couldnt find me!
see lah, eyes small is like that
=p hahahha oops.

went to claritys.
i had the fish cordon bleu and by twins influence,got him to try the chicken leg. haha
ordered calamari. but we din finish our food cuz it was just too much!
* did i say that after dinner yesterday at a jap restaurant at marina sq, i came home to EAT A FULL DINNER?! *
man...
i went to pay for the bill ( since he paid yesterday ), BUT he sneakily placed money into my ipod case!
faints. sneaky old fox. hahaa

when he told me he was alr in the station, past the control station!
nearly died.
so i rushed into the station, tapping my card and walking ultra fast, hoping he wouldnt see.
but ALAS, he saw. and he walked so fast.
so i had to RUN!
sighh, but i did catch up w him. hahahaha.
ive long legs.
lol.

cant think of wat to type alr.
VENDRAS IRRITATING ME LIKE CiRAZY!
someone, gorge out his eyeballs and box his teeth can?! grrr..

pictures next time!

2007-10-07T07:25:00.000-07:00

im so pissed by my sickening cousin who thinks hes so smart.
just nothing but overestimating himself!

IDIOTIC!

2007-10-05T08:59:00.000-07:00

hahaha did an iq quiz on facebook and i have an iq of 125.
LOL. as if.

aiya nothing to update leh.

2007-09-28T09:25:00.000-07:00

after a LONG HIATUS, im back!
finally managed to get my hands on the computer.
to make sure people dont come hammering me w knives,
i shall blog!

havent been studying, thats the main thing.
i know i should be but i havent got the motivation, time or energy to do so.
real tired lately.
with tutions after tutions ( taking up most of my time - esp now since their exams are coming ),
and catching up w peeps ( with no cash: as usual. stupid me do stupid things. sigh, dont wanna talk about them ),
watching some tv ( well, actually a lot! )..
yupp, that basically sums up my whole month...?

i wish i hadn't so much commitments.
see? dont u just hate commitments?
i feel like dropping all my students until december at least and concentrate on my work.
but, i also know that it's real irresponsible.
i mean, i cant possibly neglect them.
sigh, endure endure...

met my darlings and xueyun on wed.
kept suaning abi. haha.
i din mean it lah, but sigh, u know her.
so SUAN-ABLE.
den went to the arcade.
so embarassing. haha. but we had fun ( although abi neglected us for orges )
I WANNA SEE U GUYS AGAIN!

okay, i know pictures are really overdue.
drove a bmw 7 series, a honda oddssey and a nissan sunny.
dined at the revolving restaurant, swensens...
got tung lok mooncakes for my students and some frens.
yupp.
pictures when i feel like it.
><

dont avoid me will u?
those words of not leaving me in the lurch,
always being there are me..
are they all for show?

2007-09-08T09:34:00.000-07:00

Erica's sick again.
pathetic.
Fever, body aches.
disgusting coughs.
runny sticky nose.
itchy throat.
heavy head.
oh, yeah and my GUM still aches.
)):

hope i recover by Tortoise's birthday.
or else, mum wont allow me to go out.. )):
everyone has been nagging that i havent been touching my books.
grr..

highlight~!
case outing last wednesday.
FUNSHITT!
but im really lazy to blog.
and the way i ate was..... ))):
i still love my animals
HAHAHA.

the rest?
boring.
met up w some people and thats that.

pictures next time.

2007-09-05T10:02:00.000-07:00

this is an official announcement:
WHOEVER WHO DARES TO BLOODY BULLY MY SISTERS WILL GET IT FROM ME!
i dont care whether u r the presidents daughter or not.
if u ever, EVER dare to say such insensitive, hurtful words to her again,
I SWEAR U'LL GET IT!
u treated her coldly when she teased u, how about her when u teased her?
dont u know ur limit?
WHATS UR PROBLEM ANYWAY!
one more time, i tell myself.
AND UR D.E.A.D.

anyway, met up w CASE today!
happy happy. spent the whole day walking around and eating.
lol.
it was really fun catching up.
and i swear i looked damn retarded eating with a swollen and painfully pathetic set of gums.
the pain was really intense k.
*mum wants to me see a dentist and an operation if necessary*
IM POSITIVELY FREAKED OUT!
ok, back to the topic.
got Potato something but we were wondering when we'd ever have the chance to give it to her. lol.
me and twin got the SAME THING for the tortoise!
HAHAHAHA.
i LOVE my darlings! (((:
next wed yah? i cant wait!!
bought some stuffs for my sisters too.
im super-ed overspent today.
FAINTS.

ohwell, theres nothing much to blog about anyway.
nah, im just lazy.
whatever, till next time.

2007-09-01T09:44:00.000-07:00

my student got 95% for math! hahaha so damn proud.
but sigh, i did say that if the got 95 and above, i'd buy ALL his pen refills.
which, i think amount to more than 20 bucks.
lol.
well, the bottomline:

I'M HAPPY!
and their mum sent me an sms saying:
' hi! Erica, Z Yu and Z sheng's results hv improved a lot. thanks for ur help! '

((:

ohwells,
i gotta get back on track.
sighh shant allow myself to be distracted.

my sickening sister is laughing at my blog.
someone should really give her a GOOD, TIGHT SLAP!
grrr...
stop the teasing lah, u wait u!
next time i'll laugh at u lor. u sickening tootface!

and damnit, i should stop attracting weird people.
faints.
i still miss u.
im dead.

everytime the bus passes by ur place, my mind starts to wonder.
will i see u again?
retardity.

2007-08-29T10:13:00.000-07:00

tried studying today.
but i got so distracted/amused with the korean ladies learning english opposite me.
and den i realised i fell asleep!
omg, i swear im the most pathetic person ever.

went home to watch movie ((:
ehh i think the title is wat if he got u pregnant or smthg.
lol. quite nice.
hueihuei also said so.
watched watched watched and WATCHED!

was about to bathe when dad came home.
WENT FOR A SPIN!
well, not really lah since it lasted for an hour plus. hahaha.
but it was really funn!!

i really need to get down to mug. oh gosh this is so pathetic. LOL.

i miss u.
IM.SO.DEAD.

2007-08-28T07:10:00.000-07:00

erica is soo tired.
she hasnt showered and her eyelids are closing typing this blog entry.

EH, why am i refering to myself as a third person? lol.

im really tired,
with the As round the corner and revision is NOT EVEN PROPER yet!
i swear im going to faint.
feeling panicky now.
sighh i should get serious.

i was on my way to teach Toilet Boy today.
was on the bus and i saw TWIN-LOOKALIKE!
ehh, i swear she looked like u lor! evil girl.
hmmp.
but shes taller lah, i think. =p

YAY!
meeting CASE next wed and they are gg to seduce me so that i wont feel guilty to study
(well, according to serene tan! ) hahha...
lets see how they manage to do it.
LOL.

i want to buy my ADIDAS WATCH!!
but i gotta be financially stable first yeah?
dont want mum to like pay everything for me. sighh.
savesavesave.
budget budget budget.
)):

okayy u cant fault me.
ive tried blogging.
but my eyes are defying me.
'ciao.

i tried to speak but the words refused to come out.
its weird now, isn't it?

2007-08-22T08:20:00.000-07:00

the sexy mutants came to my place today!
actually it was supposed to be just wifey and me.
but sotong was free so YAY!

booked the court but cuz we all had no sense of timing and all,
we were late.
so we din play tennis in the end
DECIDED TO SWIM!
and i swam! - FORGETTING THAT ITS THE 7TH MONTH!
ohmygawd.
faints.
i hope nothing bad will come to me.. ><

anyway, it was real funn!
gossiped and got cheered up IMMENSELY!
thanks babe!
nunnery yeah?
ah goons and vanessas and one more name i shall not mention...
it just made me realise how wonderful the times we had in jc.
unlike those real weird people we meet now and those backstabbing and shit.

we SOAKED IN THE JACUZZI FOR LIKE 3 HOURS?! lol.
just kept talking and talking and talking.
this always happens when we hang out.
*wistful smile*

den i went up to bathe while they bathed.
they came up and we watched tv.
abi was unglam and cindy looked like so got raped. HAHAA.
pictures next time!

anyways, i felt better after venting it all out.
THANK YOU MUTANTS!
((:

yesterday i was a complete wreck.
disastrous.
my morning sucked too.
went to chem lesson looking like some fool who hadnt slept in days.
zonked out the whole time and din pay attention.
)):

my heart bled yesterday.
and its still bleeding.
i tell myself it'll heal soon.
it will, wont it?

u make me feel like nothing i do is worth it.
will u stop criticising me?
will you stop your verbal abuse?
its making me dread seeing u.
there is a limit.
and ive reached my max.

2007-08-13T07:58:00.000-07:00

a GREAT BIG HUG to MOKMOK JAC!
hahaha.
wasnt feeling too well this morning.
slight fever and headache and my body ached like monkey,
ll gave me a Panadol but not before she 'made me beg her' ( i didnt by the way- she was joking )
but sweet sweet jac BOUGHT ME PARACETaMOL from guardian and 4 honey sticks!
oh my, so touched okay!
felt a lil guilty too but thats besides the point.
THANKS MOK MOK! ((: hugs!
meeting mokmok for breakfast tmr.
yay!! (((:

sigh lessons are getting ultra boring.
and the teacher is trying so damn hard to rush thru all the topics.
and im stuck there, trying to understand what the shit shes trying to say.
feel like slapping her just now lor.
faints.
bio like that, math and chem also like that!
walau, i die alr.
can go dig grave alr.
study study!
darlings, where r u all?! HAHAHA.

ate at mad jacks cafe yesterday.
its somewhere at the start of bukit timah road near stevens road.
the food was ok.
mummy paid like 120 buckaroos for the meal!
lol.
but the oreo cheesecake was fabulous!
even better than starbucks!
((:
the rest was so-so lah.

oh and today while on my way to teach,
i saw this old lady carrying joss sticks and papers to burn ( since its ghost festival alr ),
so i offered to carry for her.
i carried for like less than a min, she got all paiseh and was like,
'eh nevermind lah, i can manage ' ( in hokkien)
seriously ah, all the weird people ive seen.
the weirdest one was when i was walking home from pasir ris central and i saw this old lady carry a HUGE plastic bag,
it looked damn heavy so i offered.
and she was like so defensive as if i was going to steal her fish and run away like that!
FAINTS.
the weirdest people i see.

2007-08-10T10:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY DEAREST!!
its 0109 now so its the day when mummy was born!
got her a bag, the SKII 'miracle water', and a shirt ((:
hope she likes it. oh i did her a card too (:

IVE POSTED THE LONG OVERDUE PHOTOS ALR!
from top: the stuffs i bought for mummmy ( not all i took. lazy )
the flabelos machine from osim i tried at courts yesterday. ( funnshitt)
holland v,
chicken something at miss claritys,
ice rock creamery ICE CREAM! ( faints )
blood donation ( ITS ORANGE! )
at clarke quay,
jiji,
jac and me,
miss claritys,
food at the swissotel!
blood donation (:

yuppp,i guess thats all.
feeling sad lately, i wonder why.
i need you. so badly.

2007-08-10T09:19:00.000-07:00

2007-08-09T07:46:00.000-07:00

went to holland v with jac and ll yesterday.
went to BREAD SHOP! hahaha but it was REALLY GOOD! hahah.
went back today again to buy! HAHA.
and eat lah.
den went to the ICE COLD CREAMERY to eat ice cream!
SUPER NICE!
so, i went there again today! HAHAHA.

JAC drove!
went to lls place after that.
gymed- but i was SUPER PATHETIC I TELL U! hahaha.
tennis-ed- got super hawt ams there! faints. and played w jac. i sucked so much that the coach decided to teach me and jac how to play! LOL. i kept whacking too hard. unglamness. ><
ahh but its funshitt! ohman!
im hooked!
badmintoned - at a squash court! dragged ll to play w me! damn good! sighh. i wanna play more!
was reallly tired. my bodys aching like crazyy!
faints.

a few days ago, went w jac to shop for mums present.
its kinda pathetic i feel guilty.
anyway, i really hope she likes it.
saturday, we shall see!
((:
pictures next time! im lazy.

I WANNA TENNIS!! anyone?
OR BADMINTON!

oh, i laughed at cindy yesterday and guess wat?
I KENA-ED TSUNAMI!! faint.
cindy, DONT LAUGH!

2007-08-04T01:06:00.000-07:00

im starting to hate teaching
cuz i dont feel appreciated at all.
and its getting quite annoying when people climb over your head and all.
lost my temper yesterday and complained.
big time.
~!@&*~!&*~! sickening!
grr, shant pollute my blog.

i need something more meaningful.
like volunteer work!
((:
after as, ANYONE?

im hungry.
wats for dinner?
HAHA.

my grades are downsliding and its freakin me out.
i mean, how can grades get worse?!
shouldnt it be like, improving?
faints.
buck up.

the playground at my house is undergoing renovation.
it brought back memories.
but its gg to stay as memories.

i need some spice in my life.

2007-07-30T07:29:00.000-07:00

went to swissotel yesterday.
for the penang buffet.
the spread was not bad, quite worth the 45++ buckaroos we each paid.
((:
alas, i was too tired to eat.
nearly fell asleep eating!
sigh.
photos next time!

and when i purposely got up early to teach the girl.
SHE HAPPILY FORGOT!
my god.
i had to drag my lazy ass outta bed ( im so not a morning person )
and she was like ' eh i forgot.'
so i tot maybe let her freshen up first or something BUT NO!
she EVEN HAPPIER-LY INVITED FRIENDS OVER!
i swore i nearly strangled her!
so feeling embarassed ( like ive just flung myself at her doorstep ) and irritated ( just a tad, but it built up later ),
i hastily beat a retreat.
called my dad and half-begged him to fetch me, lest to save some dignity which wasnt really there in the first place.
grr.
and to make things worse,
HER PRELIMS NEXT WEEK.
how wonderful.
i have NO idea how shes gonna make it
unless she really buck up, study from morn till dawn or smthg.

speaking of which, i gotta really get my ass down to mug.
sighh.

went to teach today too.
but it turned out to be a laughing session instead.
but well, they did learn smthg, i hope.
and the big brother started to become a little too rude so i got quite pissed,
and unable to control myself,
POINTED THE MIDDLE FINGER AT HIM!
dots.

just watched tv and i think im gg bathe.
the weathers too cold..
BRR...

ohwell, everyone seems to be down w flu.
sighh.
and i just realised my place here ( pasir ris drive 3) is the place Ades love!
WOW. and someone in my block kena-e dengue.
and mums colleague ( sits just beside her ) fell lovesick with the dengue mosquito.
><

im too exhausted to care.
why arent you here as u used to say you would be?
forsaken me, havent you?

2007-07-28T09:41:00.000-07:00

- the watch my dad gave my sister! ((:

THE card, the perfume, the pencil box, the monkey, the bag!

* not in the photo: the extra small bdae cake i got for darling hueihuei! ((:

HUEIhuei struts her stuff and the amath textbook my dad got for her too! HAHAHA!

mums presents to hueihuei ( clothes... ), hueihuei showing off again and MY CARD!

the cake for them both!

HAPPY 15TH HUEIHUEI!!! loves*

and to my dearest PAPA, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

hope u liked the belt i got u.. ((:

*photos i lazy upload.

hahah.

'till then,

(((:

2007-07-28T09:29:00.000-07:00

hehh hehh, proof of my DRIVING LICENSE! (((:

wat can i say?

im a happy girl ((:

THE FIRST CAR I DROVE! all the way!

i tink i almost travelled the whole eastern northern and central singapore alr! (((:

: taken when i drove my mum home from work ((;

boy, was she surprised.

hueihueis BIRTHDAY TODAY!!! shall dedicate one post SPECIALLY FOR HER!

2007-07-26T08:54:00.000-07:00

i took the car out for a spin again!
((:

i love the feeling of being in control.
its a change.
for once.
went to drive to punggol, buangkok, hougang and some ulu place and back.
it took for about 1hour?
its funn!

feeling really tired lately.
and grumpy.
and my stomachs aching like shit.
argh.
i wonder why.
pain pain go away.

// i miss the taste of your lips on mine.

2007-07-25T08:38:00.000-07:00

I GOT TO DRIVE TO FETCH MY MUM FROM WORK TODAY!
went thru pie, cte and ecp ((:
coolshit man!
HAHAHA.

met abi today.
did a little studying.
had fun. scandaled.

chem sucked.
i think im gg flung it.
AGAIN.
sigh wats new?
><

2007-07-23T06:44:00.000-07:00

my engine stalled,
my fingers were trembling so badly,
i din check my blind spots
forgot to signal,
mounted a kerb,
clutched and breaked at the same time etc.
but I PASSED IN THE END!
why?
cuz i did all of the above in the warm up round!
HAHAHA.

luckily i passed.
on the spot!
steady/
and the examiner was damn stern.
phew scared shitless.
LOL.

ohwell i did pass in the end.
SUPER SLEEPY now.
tired and i havent got my sisters and dads present!
><

anw,im damn happy.
and i got a PDA!

2007-07-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

this is it.

tommorrows the BIG DAY,
im so nervous im having a stomachache!

ohmygod!
i want it soo damn badly!!

GOD give it to me .. PLEASE!

2007-07-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

drivin9 went okayy today i guess.
i still break out in cold sweat when i thinhk of the Big Day though.
sighh.
><

laughed so hard at tution today.
that student lah. last time see him face so black now keep making me laugh.
we made each other choke on water! HAHAHA.
well, i love teaching the brothers ((:
(okay it doesnt hurt that hes cute too.. ) =p

2007-07-19T11:19:00.000-07:00

2 AMS SPOKE TO ME TODAY!!!
ang mohs as in from the US of A ! HAHAHA.
my heart cannot take it ah. LOL.
we spoke a while only and the cuter one spoke more to me!
im POSITIVELY SWOONING!
hahaha..
and its all because of my ring tone.
thanks to tammy who called! hahaha.
im so totally gg use that ring tone! HAHAHA

driving test next monday i think im gg die of nervousness.
today was at the driving centre...
was in the circuit feeling a little unsure of myself.
and GUESS WHAT?!
i saw this woman taking her TP!
she couldnt do her vertical parking and the examiner asked her to move off!
nervous attack ah!
i swear if that happens to me, i'll just ram the car somewhere.
OHGOD. bless me!

i need money real badly.
sighh.
money fall from the sky.
with my sisters and fathers birthday next week ( ON THE SAME DAY ),
plus my mums coming soon ( i really wanna get them smthg good! ),
i think im gg die.
feeling so pathetic.
maybe i should start working.
><

chatting w LL now.
both of us are getting so high over arcade games.
and it doesnt help that the time now is 257AM!
great.

monday monday please dont come..

2007-07-18T09:17:00.000-07:00

i shall let the pictures below do the talking. really lazy to blog.
plus the pictures we took are far too many to upload so i randomly chose some!
ahhaha camwhorings DAMN FUN!
lol.

for more info and pictures, refer to abis blog! hahaha.
im a lazy gurl
lol.

met up w my girls today.
and i bluffed abi that cindys my new boyfriend from UWC hahaha.
so funny and she believed it! omg.
hahaha..
tsk poor innocent abi. LOL.

well we did some work ( its not much lor.. but well, i guess its a start! )
and talked and caught up and was SUPER HAPPY!
cant wait for the weekends! ((:
i just love them
abi did her stats and cindy did her anatomy and kept drawing hands!
HAHAHA.
entertaining i swear. LOL.

next wed yes yes? (((:

okayy, im so tired. its like 1225 and i havent bathed. GRR.
ohwells.

2007-07-18T08:56:00.000-07:00

lemonade.

2007-07-13T07:47:00.000-07:00

meeting my peeps on sunday!
PLUS gg to aileens bdae chalet!
i cant wait man!
meet all the asstanners ( well, almost)..

will we bridge?
ahhaha.
maybe we could go cycling!
hahaha. i could grab my bike!

sighh i misss my ass tanners real badly.
more fun fun funn!!

ive no idea wat to blog.
oh im enjoying myself teaching at tampines.
the students there are becoming more and more enjoyable!
just today we were laughing! a lot.
i cracked his icy facade.
and i am bloody proud of myself.

im so bored.
save me pls.
and will sunday come fast? like.. NOW?

random

2007-07-11T10:04:00.000-07:00

love will tide us thru the darkest times.

been feeling loved lately.
thanks to my lovelys - Jac and LL.
our walks after classes - combed bugis till im soo bored of it alr, city hall, raffles city etc..
our talks and laughters.
maybe it isn't such a bad thing that im retaking my as again.
i get to meet such wonderful peeps :D

and THANK YOU:

JAC - for the coffee yesterday! ((: it lasted me the whole day! hugs!

LL - for the milk tea today. THANKS! loves.

feeling real guilty i made lovelys spend money on me.. next time dont k? my heart cant take it. ((:

i wore my pants the other way round and walked in it for the whole day 2 days ago without realising it!!!!!!
and i was wondering why everyone was staring at my ass.
SHITT.

anyway,
chem was BORING today.
Jac had to leave a little earlier.. )):
so after lesson, LL and i went to bugis where we walked and talked a lot of SHIT!
hahahaha, we crapped so much.
and laughed and went watch looking.
hahaa.
laughters.

and talking about crapping, i cant wait to meet my darlings on sun!
haha.
scandal scandal yes?
and lets CAMWHORE!
missed that sooo much!
hahahaa.
darling potato who made me embarass myself so badly in class - laughing to myself like some fool..
sexy wife whom I LOVE SO DEARLY! scandal scandal! ( note that the colour im using to type this msg is green :P )
and of course, my underground affair darling! amazing uad who FELL INTO A DRAIN WALKING!
hahaha.

laughter awaits.

HAPPINESS!

2007-07-07T22:24:00.000-07:00

my heart is bleeding...
its aching so bad.
will someone kiss my hurts away?

loneliness comes aknocking.

2007-07-07T10:44:00.000-07:00

im tired but i refuse to succumb to the sleep bug.

its 218 now.
had a hell of a conversation w lu just now.
brought me back to JC days.
the crappiness, the lameness, the laughter..
ohmy i miss jc days so damn much!
its okay, sunday yes?
lets turn our usual hangout UPSIDE DOWN!
hahaha.
cant wait to see them again!
((:

jac says shes gg teach me the guitar and drums!
yay!
will find a day to go to ur place k.
den we can scandal, hang out and PLAY!
yayness!

i want so many 'material' things!
i want the adidas watch!
i want fbt shorts!
i want a laptop!
i want my ipod to be filled w songs- which reminds me. abi, when r u free?!
i want more chocolates!
i want swensens ice cream cake!
i want bNjs!
i want copthrone!
i want fullerton!
i STILL want my adidas!!!!
faints.

but well,
i still want my peeps the most!
(((:
i want tortoise, sotong, potato, twinnie, jac, ll, scandal, cap, lessie..................
I WANT U ALL!!!
(((:

exhaustion.

2007-07-06T10:07:00.000-07:00

been driving myself to exhaustion lately.
forcing myself to sleep late get up early.
overteach ( yes, i overtaught like half an hour today ).
so i taught for 5 hours today.
like one after another sorta thing.
my brains fried.

i dont know why im torturing myself this way but i guess it does make me feel better.
i dont even know why i need to feel better but i do.

im sleepy and i refuse to let myself sleep.

i wonder why.

if only i was loved.

argh! i cant upload my photos!!!

2007-07-05T10:00:00.000-07:00

well i just post those i can post..

which is basically unglam cindy WRAPED! hahaha

cool huh?

lol.

nothing much happened just that im really tired lately.

all the ups and downs are eating at me.

i wish i'd stop being paranoid and think it anything people say is referring to me.

but i cant help but wonder.

cuz theres this nagging feeling in me that tells me the person ur referring to is me.

it feels like history repeating itself again and i hate that feeling of dread.

i want to belong dont you understand?

i want us to be like before.

without a care.

just enjoying each others company and laughter follow us whereever we went.

how we used to crack each other up.

how to did such lame things.

camwhoring and slacking away.

i wish all these could happen.

but will it?

will it happen?

or will it always be my one sided thinking?

maybe i just dont deserve to be your friend.

the more i try to patch this gap between us,

the more things will turn out for the worse?

i dont know.

enlighten me.

please.

thanks jac, YOU ROCK! hugs.

unlngnluclucguckylygy daylaygay..

2007-07-02T08:08:00.000-07:00

school was okayy today except i couldnt get up.
(okay, wats new? )
bored to death in school and uber sleepy.
slept for a while in bio lessons.
lol.
plus i forgot to bring my phone and calculator!
HOW LUCKY.
nearly died. lol

went to teach after that.
overtaught for 40min.
sighh.
and something super UNGLAM happened!!!
ask me personaly i'll tell you.
so paiseh lor! faints/

sighh..

life seems boring.
i miss the ass tanners esp CASE yet again/
meet up soon soon yeah?

twinnie: hows ur bdae? ((:
abi: hows first day at school?
wifey: dont get too stressed okayy! HUGS

andlndgng welege shalllhallghall meetleetgeet uplpsp soonloongoon yeslesges?

HUGS!!!

twinlwingwin celegebralragrationlionlgion

2007-07-01T08:34:00.000-07:00

met the ass tanners for twinnies birthday today.
missed them so freakin' much.
was late at new york new york.
got the waitress to take pics for us.
our group photos and sers and caps retarded face
and of course me and my toroise wife! hahaha
the ones on our mouth is acherli cotton candy.
lol.

there are more in my phone but i'll upload it another day cuz im tired.

the party's sorta boring.
singer sucked.
band sucks.
and the stereo was too loud.
but im still here.
lol.

okayy back to twinnies celebration..
we gave her TOU YA - the veggie cuz shes a goat. hahaha.
videoed her face upload next time.
along w a necklace and a treat at nyny.
hahah. hope she enjoyed herself.
walked to raffles city after sending cap off.
poor thing gg back into camp.
ahhaha.

anyways we went to coffee club while i was too engrossed with abis psp.
lol.
i want one!
hahaha.
den we decided to do what we love best.
the ultimate reason why we did badly for our as: BRIDGE!!
hahaha.

den we had to leave.
hugged each other before we parted.
sighh i miss those days..

and to CAS especially: thanklhankglank youlougou forlorgor belegeinglnggng partlartgart oflfgf mylygy liligefelige! mualuaguacklkgks! maylaygay ourlurgur friendlriendgriendshiplhipglip lastlastgast forlorgotevlvgverlrgr!!

hahaha. hope i said it right.HUGS.

i may laugh and joke but i am human afterall.
i have feelings.
please spare a thought for me instead of your own selfish entertainments.
people.
so hurt.
knowing people i've come to cherish do that to you.
BAH!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINNIE DEAREST!

2007-06-30T09:21:00.000-07:00

YEAH! its ser's bdae today!
happy 19th twinnie!!
hahaha.. (((:
hugs.

cant wait to see my peeps tmr!
so long nv see them alr.
missed them SHITLOADS!
lol.

ser will get a wonderful bdae present out of a few from CAE tot by ME!
hahahha wonder wat her expression will be.
lol.
darling goat is 19 alr!
haha.
yeah shes a goat, and MONKEY-RENE!
lol.

im sleepy.
grrr.
talked on the phone w J till 3 plus this morning.
lol.
gg to airport this wed.
hahaha.

ohwells.

OH LL, GET WELL SOON KAYYS!!!
drink more water ah! and also take ur temperature kayys!
walau, i sound like a mother!
EEK!

im stupid because i cant get into NUS.

2007-06-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

IM STUPID CUZ I CANT GET INTO NUS-
yeah apparently that what my mum THINKS.

when she came home, what greeted me was not a tired smile but a cold hard stare with a hint of anger.
and the conversation follows...

dad: eh, so-and-so's son got into NUS..
mum: oh really? wah so smart ah? where?
dad: oh, he got offered a place in NUS School Of Engineering.
mum: wah so smart ah?
dad: but he rejected it and decided to go for FASS in NUS.
mum: orh, so clever ah go into NUS.
dad: yeah..
mum: see lah other people's children so clever, not like ours..

can you imagine what that line did to me?
it ate at my insides.

it was only then did i know how embarasseed she felt when i decided to retake my as.
all those ' whatever you do i support you' and ' you can do it' are all for show.
ultimately, she just wants her 'face'.

i dont know what to say.
i dont know how to feel.
just pain splicing through my heart.
piercing through my soul.

if im such a disgrace why did she even ask me to decide for myself?
ive lost all the faith.
the determination to carry on.

this feeling sucks.
if she loves comparing me with everyone,
why doesnt she get them as their children instead?

like i dont feel stupid retaking my as again,
she HAS to rub it in.

its just me and you ( no more ).

2007-06-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

had driving today.
auto car but i sucked.
cuz i wasnt used to it.
but i made the cute instructor laugh and laugh until he was crying and wrote wrongly.
lol.
and hypnotised him into chopping me.
anyhoos i passed auto.
THANK GOD.
its not as fun as manual.
ahah.
and speaking of which, theres driving tmR!
yay!!

went to teach.
BORING.
and the number of times that guy went to toilet are UNCOUNTABLE!
severe bladder problem. lol.

was in d train when the lady in pink in front of me farted.
silent killer okay!
nearly fainted.
den she pretended nothing happened and walked away ever so casually.
leaving me to faint.

alone on the train.
the feeling felt weird.
it was packed with people but it felt strangely empty.
it was uber-noisy but it felt eerily quiet.
im getting mad.

darkness fall and i lost my soul.

2007-06-27T06:48:00.000-07:00

school sucked today.
except from hanging out w the girls today.
i totally flung my chem test.
super depressed..

my fingers were literally shaking and trembling when i handed up my manuscript.
pathetic fool.
at that instant, i felt damn stupid.
cuz i did try to study in the mrt.
and it isnt as if i din study at all.
but still, it fell real short of my expectations.

the disappointment i felt ebbed out the excitement that tmrs gg be a good day.
it sapped the energy i feel for tmrs driving.
and here i am trying to convince myself that im okay.
but im not.
i feel like an ultimate failure.

no idea who would be reading this.
just wanted to vent my anger and frustrations.

wats the point of studying anyway?
so that u can raise your hopes of being successful?
and having them dashed away?
stomped on like nothingless?

was talking to jac about religion and god.
i think it was one of the talks i had to use most brains for.
(not that i have many of them )
but i can almost swear that the rate of my brain cells degenerating was like gazellion per sec okay!

to the super 10:
WHEN ARE WE GG MEET AH?
lol.

pretty tired.
mentally and physically exhausted.

// why do all good things come to an end?

tortoise and baboon SCANDAL!

2007-06-26T11:20:00.000-07:00

abis sleeping so we are scandaling.
heres an excerpt on our conversation:

erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
SO KEEP SMILING KAYY!! CUZ BABOON WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR TORTOISE!
erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
haha. now tortoise can go sleep
erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
nightnight!
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
n tortoise will always be there for baboon
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
= )
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
nitez dear

erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
=p
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
miss Ya lots
erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
nights
erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
miss you too sexy
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
gg to miss u hell lots
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
argggghhhhhh
erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
SHY!!!

erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
I ALR MISS U HELL LOTS...
erica - princess of lameshitbooeylalaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
)):
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
hehe
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
shy oso
erica - princess of lameshitbooeylaaland / / when i cry, will you dry my tears? says:
=p
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
ok..i will definately think of u ltr
bittersweet symphony=)music of the night says:
=P

hahahha, wonder what will abi say.

nights guys. im a dead baboon tmr. sigghhh

erica's fallen DEEP in love..

2007-06-26T10:41:00.000-07:00

my love interest: ADIDAS!

especially the watches! *swoons*

dont you think they are like the best things on earth?!

well, i do.

maybe, only maybe, if i can seduce my parents to get one for me..

sighh.

i need to work real bad..

dont u just love the orange and green ones?

sighh..

*fantasize*

if one day someone proposes to me with adidas apparel,

i'll prolly marry them more than someone w a ring.

HAHAHA.

im crazy.

anyways, tried to mug w jac and LL at the national library but i couldnt concentrate.

LL left first.

until i was half dead i left.

lol.

but i din study much unless u count 3 qns a lot lah.

LOL.

was on the train when i heard a loud rough voice talking on the phone.

she seemed to be scolding someone judging from her tone of voice but she acherli wasnt.

anyway, i was thinking ' who is that uncouth person? fancy talking so loudly in the mrt and attracting stares'.

this thought of irritation kept me occupied as i cringed my neck to take a glimpse of her.

it was until i saw her: a lonely desolate figure wearing a cleaners uniform and limping to the nearby escalator - my heart clenched and i felt pain.

instantly, i regretted what i thought. and felt like slapping myself hard.

the disgust i felt at myself rendered me speechless.

i guess what im trying to say is that people tend to judge others for how they look and not who they really are inside.

outer beauty is only skin deep.

too thin to penetrate ones soul.

i should change.

anyways, its 205 now. and wifey isnt sleeping yet.

chatting w her and LL now.

so yeah and i told LL i'd blog about her..

so.. HELLO LL!!

hahaha.

happy remembering why you bumped your toe!

((:

sigh im D-E-A-D.

2007-06-25T07:41:00.000-07:00

just finished 3 hours of tution.
acherli its more than that.
teachings fun but you gotta see the student ur teaching.
i wonder why im still alive.
lol.

ABI GOT INTO NIE!
hello miss tay!
*shudders*
i think im gg to have nightmares tonight.
HAHAHA.
im asking for it.
lol.

AND SPECIAL THANKS TO LL!!
hahaha.
her names LIM LIN.
but its hard to pronounce so i just call her LL ((:
she offered to cut my GP articles for tmr!
cuz i dont have newpapers.
sweet right?
make me so high now.
ahhahaha..
THANKS BABE!!
*hugs*

and jac, dump that f***ing asshole.
he doesnt deserve you.
FULLSTOP.

okayy im really tired.
but i haven showered nor clean cindy- the tortoise.
sighh.
poor me.
and im having backaches.
old lady.

who will massage me?
not you anymore.

smiles and laughter

2007-06-24T07:42:00.000-07:00

im so dead.
tmrs testS i havent studied.
out almost the whole day.
come to my funeral, will you?
haha. wonder what everyone will say..
shitt.

i feel sleepy.
i think its PMS.
severe mood swings today.
keep getting irritated as hell with huei.
irritating.
everything also do so slow.
grrr.. so pissed.
~!@#$%^&*

hearing songs of love makes my heart ache.
seeing couples make my palms sweat.
feeling the love makes me yearn for more.
but i have nothing.

chasing away random thoughts

2007-06-23T11:18:00.000-07:00

another friendster.. ><

Body: Honest section1.

Honestly, what color is your underwear-->
i have no idea.. who notice anyway?!

2. Honestly, whats on your mind?-->
i'm not answering defeats the purpose of me doing this quiz.

3. Honestly, what are you doing?-->
This survey? lame shit. lol.

4. Honestly, are you straight?-->
well, i date guys but i have curves too ( whatever that means )...

5. Honestly, who is your best friend?-->
now? hard to say? how do you determine a best friend?

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?-->
Yes! i do bad things EVERYDAY ! * evil grin *

7. Honestly, do you watch disney channel?-->
OF course! it explains my maturity, doesnt it? XD

8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to onthe phone?-->
no one wants me.. hmm from daddy dearest.. ( im pathetic )

9. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?-->
yupp! im a biatch! ahhaha..

10. Honestly, what makes you mad most of thetime?-->
people whom i expect stuff to be done and not do them, nagging...

11. Honestly, do you bite your nails?-->
ehh no. but i do bite my skin.. ><

12. Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?-->
excessive eating, esp when im super sad..

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this verymoment?-->
nah, dun wanna disgrace myself..

14. Honestly, are you keeping a big secret rightnow?-->
i dont think so? how big is big? its hidden in my heart ((:

15. Honestly, do you have a friend you don't reallylike?-->
Uh-huh. A few

17. Honestly, are you in denial?-->
More like... rebellion and self delusion..

18. Honestly, do you get up in the middle of thenight and eat?-->
im a PIG! ((:

19. Honestly, do you like someone?-->
now? im confused.

DIFFERENT EMOTIONS SURVEY--Anger Section1.

What do you do when you're mad?-->
i EAT , scream and curse ( unglam )

3. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?-->
Yes. and i'll start crying myself.

4. Do you swear when you're mad?-->
yes.

--CRYING SECTION

1. When was the last time you really cried?-->
Pretty recently. Last week if u meant tears rolling down my cheeks.
now, if your talking about crying in my heart.

2. Ever cried yourself to sleep?-->
yupp. but it wen i was young and had a really HUGE caning and felt misunderstood.
now i dont sleep.

3. Do certain songs make you cry?-->
nope, but they make me miss people..

4. What usually makes you cry?-->
Me. The world. Humans.

-Happy Section1.
Are you usually a happy person?--> Not really, but I usually seem happy. according to friends.

2. What makes you happy?--> Friends, family, music...the list just keepsgoing on3.

Does being with your friends make you happy?--> YUPP!

4. Do you believe in yourself?--> sadly, no.

5. When people say they think you are goodlooking/pretty, do you get happy?--> I either get a little freaked or I get happy (:

ta da!!!

okayy im bored..

2007-06-23T10:32:00.000-07:00

guess what i saw on friendster? and i 'gamely' tried doing it so...
here goes..

the meaning of my name-character.
nearly died rolling my eyes..

E: Freakin' beautiful eyes! ( yeah and frankenstein will look gorgeous )
R: great girlfriend/boyfriend ( its the complete opposite okay? i suck at one. )
I: Loves to kiss ( hmmmm...? )
C: Best Smile ( did i tell you Godzilla look sexy? )
A: Gorgeous ( wahahahha!!! refer to comment for E )

L: REALLY easy to fall in love with ( so why will i die an old spinster? )
I: Loves to kiss ( this is the 2nd time this letters in my name! )
M: makes dating fun ( nah, im a bore )

Y: Loved by everybody ( oh? who? )
E: Freakin' beautiful eyes! ( wahahha! faints ! )
N: the best gf/bf you could ever ask 4 ( yeah and jerks will be loved by everyone )

W: Very broad minded ( true, minus the word 'very' )
E: Freakin' beautiful eyes! ( yeah, how many times do u want me to repeat myself? )
I: Loves to kiss ( OMG! THE 3RD TIME! )

yeah this is how bored i am.
sighh.
its 153 am now and im still blogging.
just bathed cuz i went to help dad to wash car..
its tiring okay!
luckily huei was there to help me carry water or else i'll kill myself.
so she carried water whilst i washed the WHOLE car!
damn proud of myself okay!
lol.
and we got all wet and looked like some 'sampat'
hahahaha.
but it was fun.
cleaned 'cindy' ( the real tortoise ) after that.
it splashed some water onto huei w its flippers and she started shouting at poor cindy.
wonder if THE REAL cindy sneezed.
ahahha.

i still think of u,
but i know i dont deserve you.
maybe we shouldnt even be tgt in the first place.
cuz thru it all,
ive realised that the only thing thats possible to last is friendship.
even so,
friendships r fragile.
i lost some reallly good ones.
and w some, we just simply drift apart ( knowingly or unknowingly).
maybe its true that people come and go in your life,
but is it too greedy to keep everyone by your side?

i guess it is
it doesnt hurt to hope though.
but its always the people i love most i end up hurting and disappointing.
maybe i should just not care.
another fantasy.
cuz i know that'll never happen.

and yes, its nighttime again.
nightmares haunt me.
they taunt my hopelessness.
they flood my thoughts.
they take control of me.

shadows fall and reflects my thoughts.

2007-06-22T08:14:00.000-07:00

DID I SAY JAC'S DAMN NICE?!?!
so touched when i saw her blog post.
hahaha.
and yes, i do value our friendshiP.
VERY MUCH!
it was kinda unexpected too..
cuz we knew each other for like.. a few weeks?!
hahaha.
and i must reiterate,
SHE LOOKED DAMN HAWT YESTERDAY!

I RESUMED DRIVING TODAY!!!
and it went GREAT!
i thought after MIA-ing for like 2 months,
i'd prolly forgotten everything and the instructor would prolly die oof shock.
but it was only at the starting and soon after 5 mins, I COULD FLY!
hahaha
but i forgot how to go up the slope and parallel park.
but he enlightened me.
we listened to music that LL sent to me in the car! hahaha..

PLUS HE SAID MY SENSING WAS GOOD!!!
hehh hehh.
tonight cant sleep alr. lol.

anyhoo, im off..
tired and saddening thoughts are coming back to me.
its always the night time..

how does it feel when the person you want rejects you?

tears of regret.

2007-06-21T09:37:00.000-07:00

i feel so bad.
today was supposed to be a great day but it got ruined by my BIG FAT MOUTH.
dont you just hate yourself sometimes?
i do now.

argh.
went to school a happy girl but went home a shitty one.
this was wat happened.

went to GP late today ( as usual )
but jac was even later!
lol. she was busy dressing up and when she walked into the class
my jaws dropped okay!
sexy drop dead gorgeous huh? ((:

anyways after gp we went to the hawa place where LL got her fried rice.
wanted to takeaway but ended up eating it there.
laughed, talked and gossiped about boyfriends, sisters, friends etc.
i had a really good time!

den we went to d library to fill my water bottle.
thats where disaster happened.

you see, i was suggesting to jac to ask her boyfriend to pick her
when she alr told him that she could meet him herself if it wasnt convenient.
so she did and he got angry and they quarreled.

although i still find the boyfriend super ~!@#$%^&*(~!@#$%^&*,
i still feel damn bad cuz i made her sad.
)):

she was like gg to cry and all.
dressed in hells, low v-neckline halter top and a skirt,
she looked dressed to kill.
but den i made her sad.

see?
im such a good friend am i not?
i so deserve to die.grr.

sorry jac. i really din mean it..

anyway me and LL sent her to oriental hotel.
den we went to esplanade to get mrs fields.
HEAVENLY!
made my day slightly better.
THANKS LL!!
she let me exploit her phone too haha.

went home after that.
cycled home from the mrt station and nearly got knocked over by a damn car,
cuz i was feeling too guilty and felt damn lousy.
cursed the damn driver when it was my fault
and nearly fell down the slope to the basement.

maybe a car should just run me down.
or get struck by lightning.

and when the wind blows, i fall apart

2007-06-20T09:53:00.000-07:00

ahh.. finally i got hold of blogger!

finally managed to blog!

hahaa..

for the benefit of readers,

im now single again.

haha.

we just arent compatible.

but FRIENDS ALWAYS yeah?

((:

spent the day today with Jac and Limlin

realised i was like really innocent.

and to my darling sotong and tortoise:

I DARESAY IM SOO INNOCENT!

which makes you guys babies!!!

gosh. ahhaha..

we went cam whoring.

topshop makes me happy now! lol.

realised the real meaning of scandaling.

ill be careful to use them now.

depending on who my company is.

ahaha.

i love their company.

its been long since i had such fun.

havent met my peeps for a long time.

now

FASTER ARRANGE!

sighh.

and ive gotta stop teaching for free.

or else im gg die a church mouse.

grr.

anyway

i was jacuzzi-ing downstairs yesterday

when i saw this 15-year old couple ( the guy is 15 ) kissing the girl like SUPER EXPERT!

like seriously!

the tilt of their heads,

the positioning of their lips..

WHOA i tell you man!

pHds okay!

and Jac said it was okay!

faints.

i tried not to stare,

but being the nosey me and the old virgin left on the shelf till my deathday,

my eyes inevitable strayed back to them.

LOL.

anyway back to our little outing today.

went to eat chicken rice!

hahaha.

and i did a version of sexy DLS pretzel in tpjc

only instead of pretzel i used hello panda.

it made me relieve those old memories and i felt so emotional then.

the happy memories we shared.

the lectures we ponned ( like crazy)

how we made teachers burst blood vessels ( esp me haha)

MC, miss leo etc etc.

ASSHOLE TAIDI!

BRIDGE!!

all these memories

so overwhelming.

abi, open ur house will you?

how i wished our time in tpjc nv ended,

the super 10 of us...

the bouquets of 99 we made at DLS's house..

my ever dearest sweetest darling wife

( tortoise )

the worlds best UAD - always to cure my boredom!

and to nag at me!!! ahahhaa...

(mutated sotong ! )

NOW I GOT A FEELING THEY WILL KILL ME..

i even miss... being a...

baboon!!!

( like wifey loves to sing: BABABABA.. BOON! )

sighh..

to the rest ( amelia luvena tammy GC capri ser )

im sorry my com died so i cant find pics to include...

lets meet up den we can cam whore like we used to den i'll post k? ((:

i love you guys loads!

hear my heart beat in the darkness of night

its over, no?

2007-06-10T04:03:00.000-07:00

sighh a drastic change of events has left me busy and confused.

maybe this is the life im gg to lead.
the life im fated to lead.

whatever.

a dream is a wish that your heart makes!! *cheers*

((:

finally//

lemonade.

random

loneliness comes aknocking.

exhaustion.

argh! i cant upload my photos!!!

unlngnluclucguckylygy daylaygay..

twinlwingwin celegebralragrationlionlgion

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWINNIE DEAREST!

im stupid because i cant get into NUS.

its just me and you ( no more ).

darkness fall and i lost my soul.

tortoise and baboon SCANDAL!

erica's fallen DEEP in love..

sigh im D-E-A-D.

smiles and laughter

chasing away random thoughts

okayy im bored..

shadows fall and reflects my thoughts.

tears of regret.

and when the wind blows, i fall apart

its over, no?

a dream is a wish that your heart makes!! cheers